Saturday, July 2, 2016

Great Loss

With life at warp speed, a return to teaching a few years back, and now 5 kids (my nephew has come to live with us) my blog has fallen by the wayside.  I also found that many people who read my blog were just easier to keep up with on Facebook.  As many of you know, though, my mom passed away as the result of a car accident last week and now I need a place to process.  I know...this is the internet, this is public...but I hope that this will, in some way, help others.  So here goes...

And yet, where do I start?

Mom and Corey developed a bond over stargazing at the beach just this month.  They were, in fact, heading to the planetarium when the accident occurred.  Tonight as we were returning home from a trip, he started telling me the things she told him about stars.  Then we started looking to see if we could find Mars, which is what they did at the beach.  I could hear him crying in the seat behind me, and all I could think was, "How could they have sat out at the beach 3 short weeks ago on a Friday night like this one looking at these same stars?"  When we got home we got out the telescope and tried to find Mars.  He told me he borrowed the telescope so she could look with him, and yet there I was...not her.  Oh how my heart hurts for him, for all of us...for the time that was stolen and all that should have been.  

I don't really even know how to end this, and I'm sure there's more to come...

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